AUTOBIOGRAPHY_OF_MR.

Part One Introductions.

“I was part of life at last, and in the midst of the excitement I discovered liquor. I forgot the strong warnings and the prejudices of my people concerning drink.”

Bill’s Story. The Big Book of the Amateur Angels.

Alcoholism and the Magic of Alcohol in Humanity.

We begin this introduction with a discussion of the most widespread recreational practice in humanity, which is the drinking of alcohol and then suffering from the malady that comes with it, with the later being the one that most people do generally not want to know about, as they are affected by it, directly or indirectly. This is the malady of alcohol addiction, but in these writings, all pollution of the human brain with chemicals that replace the natural neuro-transmitters, is given the title alcoholism. This may appear in addictive, none-addictive and co-dependent addictive forms and is now affecting all of the population in the western cultures. This addiction percentage was estimated at 5% of the population in 1920, but in 2000 it had--conservatively calculated--become 25%, of which 15% were addicted to alcohol, 5% to illegal chemicals and 5% to legal drugs, at any given time.

This is a reflection of about 70% of the population currently trying alcohol (or other chemicals) at any given time, resulting in 36% of them becoming addicted alcoholics, but the remaining 30% of the population are children and those who never drink alcohol. Of the 70% that try alcohol, the 36% represent that become addicted represent the 25% of the total population, with the remaining 45% usually becoming none-addicted alcoholics, which are also co-dependent alcoholics along with the remaining 30% none-drinking population. These figures are now growing at an alarming exponential growth rate with each generation, with no one knowing conclusively how serious the consequences are for our genetic legacy, or what can be done about the problem other than trying to control it through legislative punishment, which is counterproductive and only accelerate it.

What do our Sciences really know about Alcoholism?

Although our scientists have mountains of isolated knowledge about the brain's functions and malfunctions, they do not know what the "X" factor is, nor for that matter, what alcoholic addiction is. This is owing to the fact that they have not solved the riddle of the human brain but here the main issue is our understanding of consciousness, or rather the lack of it. The word that most neuroscientists used to express both consciousness and the brain is "mind", representing the contents of consciousness, which is assumed to be nothing more than electrochemical surges among the nerve cells in the brain's seat of consciousness. However, some are open to the possibility that the "mind", or consciousness could exist independently, but do not know how. The very lack of an ultimat insight into this is what hinders our scientists in solving the riddles of the human brain’s fundamental programming, functional organization, storage and retrieval of memory information as well as for its malfunctions which our scientists are still groping in the dark. This includes alcoholism and all the other addictions variants.

This lack of an ultimate understanding of the brain and its functions is then reflected in the utter inability of our neuroscientists to explain the addictions and to produce a solution for them. What is even worse is the fact that these disciplines are behind the psychological and psychiatric psycho reactive chemical treatment of this world’s most widespread ailment and are thus using the same method for healing that originally created the problem. Another major negative consequence of the neuroscientist’s lack of proper brain modeling is reflected in its inability to produce explanations for the multitude of neurosis and psychiatric illnesses and their connection to man’s use of alcohol and other psycho reactive chemicals. Even worse is the neuroscientists and chemists denial of their lack of knowledge, which along with the same kind of denial by the psychological and psychiatric disciplines, produces the distract alcoholics and addicts from the proper solution, which is the spiritual one presented by the Amateur Angels.

Since the alcohol effects the reality perception through the subtle alterations in the brain’s fundamental natural programming, it consequentially alters its performance, not just directly, but also indirectly through the collective “alcohol-mentality”, which renders it un-necessary for a man to drink alcohol himself to become effected by it, but this fact is for the most part hidden from our neuroscientists. This in turn alters the general social behavior, which means that this “alcohol-mentality” is writing our history without us being aware of it and is further the cause for most of our terminal statistical sicknesses, which are caused by the DNA-functional disorders called “the DNA-filters,” in the QF-brainmodels, and which originate in this pollution.

Brain-modeling that makes the QF-interpretations Possible.

A major part of the reasons for our scientists not having solved the riddle of the human brain and consciousness is in the fact that some fundaments of quantum reality are still missing in the “standard model of physics”. The ideas that represent these missing insights, which have primarily to do with the connection between quantum mechanics and general relativity, are provided for the first time through the QF-unification theory. The quantum reality models that this theory offers is in turn the base for comprehensive brainmodels that describe healthy brain programming, functions and malfunctioning. This is the reason for the Book of Revelation prophesies being about the discovery of this theoretical unification model, that for the first time conclusively explains the effects of alcohol on the human brain. These physics insights represent additional insights to the standard model and essentially verify Albert Einstein’s 1926 intuition comment: “Quantum mechanics is certainly imposing. But an inner voice tells me it is not yet the real thing. The theory says a lot, but does not really bring us closer to the secret of the old one.”.

As an aid to the readers understanding of the QF-interpretations of the Revelation’s Seven Seals--and for that matter the rest of the interpretations--it is imperative that he have some insight into the QF-brain model’s holistic arrangement of the human brain, but without this insight the interpretation is not possible. It is for this reason that we offer here in this introduction some relatively simplistic QF-brainmodels graphics that should render the causes for the addictions (alcohol and drugs) comprehesible but relative to the complexity of the reality they describes, these explanations are actually quite simple.

What is decisive in the explanations is the fact that the QF-theory’s insights provide the much sought after links between quantum mechanics and general relativity and at the same time offers particle symmetries that incorporate this vital feature. The resulting relative-directions in the particle wave functions in turn offer new insights into the properties of the matter and antimatter sides of the photon and thus a new and vital understanding of the twofold properties of the wave of consciousness, that in turn renders it holistic and solve its fundamental riddles. The QF-theory’s fundamental symmetry of the universe at the end of the birth of time provides insights into the symmetric nature of life that is built into the structure of the DNA-molecule and the functions of its nucleotides, which in turn render the organization of the neocortex of the human brain holistic. It also presents the explanations for the brain’s intrinsic “program-knowledge” of its own material and spatial reality organization. This, in conjunction with the wave of consciousness, is the key to the understanding of life itself. The QF-theory’s demand that ALL Fermions (matter particles) be composed of triplicate membrane- shell-waves—Leptons as well as Baryons (3 quarks)—also requires that the quantum field flow of the photons be also composed of triplicate membrane-shell-waves. This provides a physics explanation for the composition of the spinal energy flow to the wave of consciousness, that matches the insights by the ancient sages of Egypt and Greek, as well as the yogi sages of India and provides the fundaments for the understanding of consciousness and the brain’s memory storage and retrieval. It is the malfunction of this arrangement that is the rout cause of all the neurological and psychological malfunctions of man and the insights into its proper functions that provide the explanations for the correction of man’s DNA-programs, as well as the phenomenon known as miracles. In these insight are also to be found the most important explanations for the difference between the healthy quantum change process and the malfunctioning quantum change process that produces psychiatric illnesses and the epileptic seizures, but these are to-day not know in molecular biology and neuro-physiology, resulting in the treatment of these pathological conditions with chemicals that aggravate the addiction situation in humanity. This amounts to trying to cure a problem with the same method it was created.

The Simplistic QF-brainmodels for the Healthy Brain.

In order to provide the reader with an insight into the descriptions here prior, four simplistic graphics that show us the brain and consciousness overview arrangements are presented in figures #016, #017, #018, and #019. Here figure #016 shows the basic division of the brain, figure #017 the main neuro-transmitter poles in the brain, figure #018 the holo-symmetric arrangement of consciousness and brain, with figure #019 showing the brain's fundamental programming division and memory arrangement.

The Brain's Divisions.

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The QF-brainmodels uses the standard 7 part division of the brain, here shown with the three-colored lines in the left hemisphere denoting the electromagnetic field of consciousness that unites the 24 to 30.000.000.000 pyramid neurons in the neo-cortex, into one reality that represents the individual. The QF-brainmodels for consciousness is a dual field independent of the brain, except for its contents, but the QF-modeling refrains from using the confusing term “mind” that is a term pertaining to the brain’s unsolved riddles.

A major novel approach for analyzing the brain are functional centers known as the “mirror neurons”, shown here in figure #017 below, but these two poles contain on one side the ego-self perception centers and the speech centers and on the other side the compassion centers and the spiritual centers, but these regulate between them the brain’s neuro-transmitter production. These in turn regulate the brain’s reality perception.

The Neuro-transmitter Poles of the Brain.

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The next graphic number #018 on the next page shows how nature achieves the miracle of the holographic properties in the brain’s construction, but this arrangement has rendered the brain’s secrets so hard to crack. In the top half of the graphic is shown how the holographic properties of the wave of consciousness, through the twofold electromagnetic quantum field of consciousness, produced by the photon, contain both a matter side and an antimatter side. In the lower half we have the brain’s construction principle based on the QF-model’s even distribution of the DNA’s nucleotides into exons and introns, creating a twofold holographic brain arrangement.

The Holo-symmetric Brain.

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It is this arrangement that renders it possible for our consciousness to be retrieving DNA-stored holographic photon information, while at the same time storing holographic photon information in the DNA, a feature that is unthinkable with the "mind model" of electrochemical action impulse surges amongst the nerve cells in the seat of consciousness.

Figures #019 presents the same insight, but in a different perspective giving an idea of the brain’s fundamental primary and secondary programming distribution and memory storage. One of the major insights of importance that this brain modeling offers, is that the brain’s fundamental programming is divide in such a manner that in the dominating spatial side introns are the causative programs which initiate all thoughts. This means that in the dominating matter side exons are the executive programs, which execute all thought actions. This is in particular important when it comes to understanding the addiction sicknesses and the gradually altered character and personality trades in individuals suffering from these alterations.

The Brains Programming and Memory Divisions.

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The control organ of men is thus similar to a well organized firm or government having a management branch and an executive branch. This means that the life of the individual is always controlled by the causative spatial management side, the question is just concerning the amount of functional disturbances accumulated in its executive branch DNA-intron nucleotides.

The QF-Mechanism that creates the Chemical Addictions.

According to the QF-brainmodels, the brain’s neo-cortex--the brain’s seat of consciousness—consists of about 24 to 30.000.000.000 fundamental program neurons, so called pyramid neurons (this is disregarding the so called glia neurons). It is in this area that the primary flow of the electromagnetic field of consciousness (the thinking) takes place as shown in figure #016 and in this area the neurons exercise the exchange of excitatory and inhibitory neuro-transmitters through which their collective reality perceptions for the whole of the brain are regulated.

In normal brain functions, this takes place through electric action impulses fired by the neurons in accordance with their acceptance or submission of holographic memory photons, but this decides at the same time the number of neurons taking part in the thinking process. Each neuron has anywhere from a 100 to a 1000 dendrite tentacles connecting them to other neurons through a small gap known as the synaptic cleft, through which the neuro-transmitter exchanges take place. This means that as many as 6 to 700.000.000.000 such exchanges may be taking place in the brain every second, during awakening hours. The exchanges in the synaptic clefts take place through an initial discharge followed by what is known as the re-uptake, or the return of some of the discharged neuro-transmitters which takes place through the altered electrical polarization of the receiving neuron (post-synaptic neuron).

Again according to the QF-brainmodels, the mysterious process that takes place in the brain while in it are present chemicals that are not naturally in the brain produced neuro-transmitters, is an erroneous deposit of holographic memory photons in the wrong DNA-memory and program storage places. These are chemical that are similar in structure to the natural ones and who have come across the brains so called blood-brain-barrier and entered into the neurons via the brain’s fluids. As the neurons try to use these chemicals as neuro-transmitters, the normal synaptic exchange process fails, producing what is known as the “failed re-uptake” which is shown in figure #020.

Failed Re-uptake and False Receipt Polarization.

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The failed re-uptake synaptic exchanges are a part of wrong discharge that alters the polarization of the receiving neuron opposite to what the natural neuro-transmitters would have achieved and this in turn is the cause for the erroneous deposit of the holographic memory photons. These erroneously deposited photons—called filters in the QF-brainmodels--in turn disturbs the neuro-transmitter production program and later it—usually the neuro-inhibitor production program--of the effected neuron and thus over an extended time decreases the production of the neuron’s reward neuro-transmitters, thus gradually forcing the individual to seek external chemicals that artificially replace these.

Accumulative Filter Deposits in the Brain’s Spatial Introns.

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As this takes place on repeated basis over years, it not only produces the addiction in the individual’s nerve-system, but through accumulative filters alters the fundamental programming in his brain’s spatial hemispheric introns and in turn alters the character and personality of the individual. These filters are what the 12-step program of the Amateur Angels calls “character defects”, but in the religions this is variably known at the “seven deadly sins”, “karma” or simply the “Devil”. The progressive accumulation of the filters may turn the individual into an insane psychotic wreck before he terminates in premature death as indicated in E. M. Jellinek’s MD research findings. Such individuals do not have a possibility to abstain from the chemicals that are killing them unless they succeed in getting rid of the erroneous filter program indicated in figure #021.

What is now being discovered is that the fundamental survival program character trades of humans are genetically passed on to the next generation in accordance with the laws of genetic inheritance discovered in the nineteenth century by the Austro-Hungarian monk, Johann Gregor Mendel. Mendel who made controlled experiments with green and yellow beans discovered that the genetic inheritance might pass through several generations before being expressed. An example of explanation this offered may be seen in the case of a white man and a black woman having a black child, which in turn would have a black child, which would then also have a black child that would have a white offspring. This is also the case with alcoholism and other addiction sicknesses where the accumulated filter inheritance may not necessarily be expressed in the next generation and may even be delayed for several generations. According to the findings of the QF-brainmodels, the filter is also responsible for most of the epilepsies and all of the psychiatric illnesses, but their association with the ancestral living habits is in many cases hidden due to delayed expression of the filter, as well as the toxic shame denial factor that is dominant in families. As the fact of the now rapidly accelerating growth of alcoholism and other addictions is gradually becoming undeniable, this is now gradually dawning on the consciousness of health authority individuals who are utterly powerless over its control, not to mention the reversal of this lethal evolution.
Of all the looming threats facing humanity the now rapidly growing alcohol and drug addiction is by far the worst, primarily due to the fact that we do not fully realize the danger it presents. This problem is not just a health problem but a general management problem directed at the pillars of society, the foundations of law and order, which hold civilization together.

The First Symptom of Alcoholism; Denial.

In the art of Anthropology we study various aspects of the cultural trades of Man and amongst other such analyses, make assessments of their value for survival. A major part of this study has been to discover why it is that the cultures so often gradually build up only to collapse in a relatively short span of time, but this trend is seen now by many seen as a global threat to all cultures. In this research man has been severely handicapped since he has not had the benefit of a neurological understanding of the human brain and its malfunctions. With the cultural trades in modern societies have now been collectively developing through the communication and trade explosion after World War Two and the global cultures have become more and more assimilated, mainly through the proliferation of television and the widespread travel. This global development has also had major effect in popularizing and magnifying the alcohol recreation culture, to which the illegal drug culture is attached and to which the counterproductive pharmaceutical drug treatments are bound to follow. This is the framework behind the now exponentially growing sickness of alcoholism in the form of addiction to alcohol, illegal drugs and psychological medication whose prime symptom is the shame phenomenon of denial. Since the addicts also affect seriously and lethally those who are close to them—generally known as co-dependant or just dependant—they also acquire the first symptom of the addiction, the toxic shame denial. The frame of this hidden development was first cracked through the foundation of the Amateur Angels and followed through with the research by E. M. Jellinek MD. These developments have now produced hundred of thousands of recovered individuals with extensive knowledge of the alcoholic-addict character and behavior trades and how to counteract the denial factor.

Phases of Alcohol Addiction, by E. M. Jellinek.

As the central theme of the prophesy of the Book of Revelation begins with the “four dreaded horsemen of the apocalypse”, which many a brilliant brain has puzzled over for centuries, having little realization that this was a metaphorical description of the accelerating growth of alcoholism, then it is fitting that we start with the story of how this connecting insight became possible. Such a connection could only be made after the middle of the 20th century, which saw the first meaningful research into this syndrome, but this came about through the 1935 foundation of the Amateur Angles and their addiction recovery program, which ten years later had produced a great number of recovered alcoholics. These people had returned to their wits and become capable of describing their experience, but previously any research attempts through interviewing active alcoholics had failed, as these either lied or did not realize what was happening to them.

This was first realized in 1944 when a New York doctor, Marty Mann (founder of National Council on Alcoholism)--her self a recovered alcoholic--made the insight that alcoholism had become researchable and took it to the Yale biostatistician and physiologist, Elvin Morton Jellinek. Doctor Mann then--along with others--financed Jellinek’s famous 1946-1950 United States study of recovering alcoholics. This study began with a 1946 questionnaire study of, members of Amateur Angles, and for the first time formulated a concept of phases in the drinking history of alcoholics. With the original publication of this concept Jellinek outlined a more detailed questionnaire, which in the intervening years was administered to some 2,000 alcoholics. The elaboration of the phase's concept resulting from analysis of these additional materials then presented the world for the first time with a description of the changes that take place in the psychological and spiritual make-up of alcoholics through a 4 phases (stage), 44 step progression. The results were then presented by Jellinek in lectures at the Yale Summer School of Alcohol Studies in 1951 and 1952 and at the European Seminar on Alcoholism in Copenhagen 1951, but the summary of the findings of these lectures were soon accepted by the Alcoholism Subcommittee of the World Health Organization (WHO).

The Disease Conception of Alcohol Addiction.

In a 1960 book, THE DISEASE CONCEPT OF ALCOHOLISM, E. M. Jellinek presents the arguments for describing types of alcoholism as pathological and tells the story of its acceptance in the 1950s, by the US health authorities and the World Health Organization, but here following are its definitions.

"The WHO Subcommittee has distinguished two categories of alcoholics, namely, “alcohol addicts” and “habitual symptomatic excessive drinkers.” For brevity’s sake the latter will be referred to as non-addictive alcoholics, with the disease conception applying to the alcohol addicts only, but not to the habitual symptomatic excessive drinkers. In both groups the excessive drinking is symptomatic of underlying psychological or social pathology, but in one group after several years of excessive drinking “loss of control” over the alcohol intake occurs, while in the other group this phenomenon never develops. The group with the “loss of control” is designated as “alcohol addicts.”

The disease conception of alcohol addiction does not apply to the excessive drinking, but solely to the “loss of control” which occurs in only one group of alcoholics and then only after many years of excessive drinking. There is no intention to deny that the non-addictive alcoholic is a sick person; but his ailment is not the excessive drinking, but rather the psychological or social difficulties from which alcohol intoxication gives temporary surcease. The “loss of control” is a disease condition per se which results from a process that superimposes itself upon those abnormal psychological conditions of which excessive drinking is a symptom. The fact that many excessive drinkers drink as much as or more than the addict for 30 or 40 years without developing loss of control indicates that in the group of “alcohol addicts” a superimposed process must occur.

Whether this superimposed process is of a psychopathological nature or whether some physical pathology is involved cannot be stated as yet with any degree of assurance, the claims of various investigators notwithstanding. Nor is it possible to go beyond conjecture concerning the question whether the “loss of control” originates in a predisposing factor (psychological or physical), or whether it is a factor acquired in the course of prolonged excessive drinking.

The fact that this “loss of control” does not occur in a large group of excessive drinkers would point towards a predisposing X factor in the addictive alcoholics. On the other hand this explanation is not indispensable as the difference between addictive and nonaddictive alcoholics could be a matter of acquired modes of living--for instance, a difference in acquired nutritional habits."

Matching Jellinek's Findings to the Revelation.

The progression of the alcohol caused psychological personality changes in the individual, discovered by E.M. Jellinek, can of course be portrayed in many different ways. Like everything else, it may be described through forms of visual images, such as the dramatic and spiritual prophetic/poetic metaphors represented in the Revelation’s four colored horses and their rider. These two parallel pictures--one in the form of research data, the other in metaphors--are here in the QF-interpretations, connected for the first time in history, where it is the same person who rides all four horses, but the metaphors of the riders fits perfectly and in simplicity, the dominating trades of the alcoholic going through each phase.

For the purpose of giving the reader an overview of the progression of the four phases of the alcohol addiction we have taken Dr. Jellinek's "Chart of Alcohol Addiction" and taken the liberty of adding to it the four "Apocalyptic Riders", plus a general consumption and effect graph, which is only an educated estimation. This is presented on the opposite page as figure #022.

The diagram for the course of alcohol addiction is based on an analysis of more than two thousand drinking histories of male alcohol addicts. Not all symptoms shown in the diagram occur necessarily in all alcohol addicts, nor do they occur in every addict in the same sequence. The “phases” and the sequences of symptoms within the phases are characteristic, however, of the great majority of alcohol addicts and represent what may be called the average trend.

For alcoholic women the “phases” are not as clear-cut as in men and the development is frequently more rapid. The “phases” vary in their duration according to individual characteristics and environmental factors. The “lengths” of the different phases on the diagram do not indicate differences in duration, but are determined by the number of symptoms which have to be shown in any given phase.

The chart of the phases of alcohol addiction serves as the basis of description, and the differences between addictive and non-addictive alcoholics are indicated in the text.

MODIFYED CHART OF ALCOHOL ADDICTION

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Throughout the ages, men have described phenomena, which they have not be able to explain, as being either white or black, magic, depending on its benefit to men. This description fits the effects of alcohol in the human constitution, but they are still magical in the sense that men do not have the last word on its explanation, with the alcohol usually appearing as “white magic” in its initial use, then, either fast or gradually, it will show its true nature, or that of the “black magic of Hell and Death”.

This Part One of the three part prophesy, describes the appearance of this black magic in the alcoholic progression of the Aquarian, including his initial recovery through admission into detoxification and rehabilitation therapy, which leads to an introduction into the Amateur Angles. This is followed by his 12-step-work, which is culminated in the “seventh step-seventh seal” spiritual experience that starts his progression into spiritual awakening and saves his life.

We shall thus begin to learn more about this effect in the life of the Aquarian, through the wonderful story of his addiction progression enfolding in this book, which in accordance with the traditions of the recovering alcoholics, starts with the classical “How it was” part of the alcoholic’s story. This is then followed by the first part of “What happened”, which leads to the Amateur Angels and its recovery work culminating in the “seventh step-seventh seal” spiritual experience that starts his progression into spiritual awakening.

“Why didst thou leave the trodden paths of men
Too soon, and with weak hands though mighty heart
Dare the unpastured dragon in his den?
Defenseless as thou wert, oh, where was then
Wisdom, the mirrored shields...?”

P. B. Shelley.

Part One, Chapter One
(Book of Revelation Chapter 6.)

The Rupture of
the First Seal

The Teenage Years and the Early Twenties in the Author's Life. His Progression in the First Stage of None-addicted Alcoholism
during his 13rd to 23rd Years of Life.

“Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is
bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people.”

More about alcoholism. The Big Book of the Amateur Angels.

Book of Revelation Chapter 6.

1) Then I saw the Lamb break open the first of the seven seals, and I heard one of the four living creatures say in a voice that sounded like thunder, “Come!” 2) I looked, and there was a white horse. Its rider held a bow, and he was given a crown. He rode out as a conqueror to conquer.

Revelations 6.

THE QF-INTERPRETAION OF CHAPTER 6 : 1-2.

The first two seals in the prophesy ruptured by Apallo Aquarian, represent the two Non-addicted Alcoholic Stages, or the Purely Symptomatic Phase. These are The Prealcoholic Symptomatic Phases and The Predromal Phase to Addiction of the alcoholic progression, which in his case are rather extended taking him through 20 years of drinking, or from the 13th to the 33rd year of his life. These are the none-pathlogical phases of alcoholism.
The first Jellinek phase, or The Prealcoholic Symptomatic Phase of the Aquarian's alcoholic progression corresponds to the First Seal in the Revelation and deals with the changes in his personality during the years from 13 to 23.
"1) Then I saw the Lamb break open the first of the seven seals, and I heard one of the four living creatures say in a voice that sounded like thunder, “Come!” 2) I looked, and there was a white horse. Its rider held a bow, and he was given a crown. He rode out as a conqueror to conquer."
This seal pertains to his early teens when the Aquarian's begins to steal alcohol from his father, which happens to be White Horse Whisky. This beginning of the use of alcoholic beverages is giving him and does indeed make him feel self-assured feeling like a conqueror. Here the one crown denotes the one sided selfassured and arrogant personality produced by the alcohol. At 18 the drinking progresses into experiences of rewarding emotional relief the alcohol produces in crises and at this time an increase in alcohol tolerance is noticed.

END OF QF-INTERPRETAION OF CHAPTER 6 : 1-2.

Prealcoholic Symptomatic Phase : Jellinek's Enquiry.

“The very beginning of the use of alcoholic beverages is always socially motivated in the prospective addictive and nonaddictive alcoholic. In contrast to the average social drinker, however, the prospective alcoholic (together with the occasional symptomatic excessive drinker) soon experiences a rewarding relief in the drinking situation. The relief is strongly marked in his case because either his tensions are much greater than in other members of his social circle, or he has not learned .to handle those tensions as others do.

Initially this drinker ascribes his relief to the situation rather than to the drinking and he seeks therefore those situations in which incidental drinking will occur. Sooner or later, of course, he becomes aware of the contingency between relief and drinking.

In the beginning he seeks this relief occasionally only, but in the course of 6 months to 2 years his tolerance for tension decreases to such a degree that he takes recourse to alcoholic relief practically daily.
Nevertheless his drinking does not result in overt intoxication, but he reaches toward the evening a stage of surcease from emotional stress. Even in the absence of intoxication this involves fairly heavy drinking, particularly in comparison to the use of alcoholic beverages by other members of his circle. The drinking is, nevertheless, not conspicuous either to his associates or to himself. After a certain time an increase in alcohol tolerance may be noticed, i.e., the drinker requires a somewhat larger amount of alcohol than formerly, in order to reach the desired stage of sedation. This type of drinking behavior may last from several months to 2 years according to circumstances and may be designated as the prealcoholic phase, which is divided into stages of occasional relief-drinking and constant relief-drinking.”

The Non-addicted Alcoholic Teenage Years and the
Early Twenties in the Life of the Aquarian.

The Rupture of the First Seal.
Narration by “Merlin the Wizard.”

We have come to the beginning of the first part of the actual events of the prophesy, “The Breaking of the Seals.” This is to where our Aquarian’s personal life experiences, begins to become capable of connecting to the Book of Revelations. It is here where the Dragon appears which has to do with changes in the Aquarian’s brain’s function; unnatural, but commonplace changes. This is the beginning of the Aquarian’s use of alcohol, which in turn starts a gradual development of an emotionally unstable subconscious in his brains spatial hemisphere, or none speech hemisphere. This being “The Beast that Comes Out of the Sea,” and whose “One of the Heads Seemed Fatally Wounded but had Healed.” Here the reference is to the “First of the Two Beast” mentioned in Revelation 13 and we later get to meet, when we also meet the other beast of the brain’s left hemisphere (material/earth, speech hemisphere), which on occasions “Speaks Like a Dragon” and for whose name the number 666 stands. All this needs explaining through the language of contemporary quantum reality, neurology and psychobiology and is therefore something witch is the subject of other writings. The main point here is that in contrast to what modern psychology believes, the left hemisphere or the material one is not the dominating hemisphere in Man’s brain but the subconscious/unconscious, which steers the actions of the individual in a most subtle manner through his instincts and underlying desires motives. The question of Man is thus a question of the condition of this brain’s spatial hemisphere.

It is here that the Aquarian’s progression of alcoholism starts, but unusually slow, partially due to his not being allowed to go to public dances until he is 18 and to use alcohol publicly until he is 21. His drinking is more or less just flirting with alcoholic beverages, “out of bounds,” from 13 until he becomes 18, during which time he would steal small quantities of his fathers favourite scotch, “White Horse Whiskey,” which he replenishes with water. Since his brother practices the same, this leads to the father buying a safe in order to prevent his scotch from turning into water.

The Teens and All the Pretty Girls.

Adolescence came like a cyclone in the life of the Aquarian as he felt the onslaught of the function of, what we like to call the “muladhara chakra” in Merlin’s language. This is the last of his glands, the testicles, which now go to work in his body and on his mind through the subconscious/unconscious, in the later part of his 13th year, somewhat later than for most of his contemporary fellows. It however, not take long until he had lost his virginity with a year younger girl, who happily obliged.

Due to his upbringing and ignorance, the experience produced a great deal of guilt and worries of conception along with a sexually preoccupied subconscious. His physical growth was slow and continued until his 18th year when he reaches his full height, 2-3 years later than the other boys of his age. However, with his dark brown eyes and hair, he did become a bit of a good looking devil in the eyes of some girls, and that was all that mattered to him.

Not long after having his first intimate experience with a girl the Aquarian had his first drink of snaps from a boy who was his idol in manliness. Manliness being something which he felt he lacked and that was giving him a feeling of being inferior, since he was slow in growing and smaller than all the other boys. It would not be long until he learned that only a small amount of alcohol would make his feelings of inferiority disappear and he started to meat occasionally with the older boys to have a sip or two of this drink that made him feel that nothing was amiss with him. He would have a few sips of alcohol that gave him a feeling of self-sufficiency and it could be said that it made him feel like a prince and that he was wearing a crown and riding out as a conqueror to conquer. His idol told him all about the effects of alcohol and warned him that people who started drinking late in their lives would become skid-row bums and soon he had forgotten all the warnings and all his fears about alcohol. His emotional life, which had already been heavily taxed by his fathers drinking bouts, became even more fluctuating and he started to “fall in love” with girls, one after the other, this with much emotional effects that would fade away as quickly as it had appeared as this “love falling” had more to do with his instincts than a natural evolution of healthy emotional ties.

The last high-school year of the Aquarian was spent in a boarding school situated in the foothills under a glacier on the south coast of the mainland of Atlantiz, where some older boys, friends of the Aquarian, who were learning to fly, landed near the school and took him for a ride, which made him a hero. Of course he was going to become a pilot, no question about it.

After high school graduation at 17 the Aquarian went through two years of being more or less lost and without being able to form any plans regarding his future. The first half of the next year was spent going through fishing boat’s engine operator’s school and this was then followed by two years of seasonal working on the fishing boats on Dragon Island. He had no idea why he was doing this, but this period in his life was accompanied by markedly increased engaging in intimate physical relations with girls.

Eventually the Aquarian’s father would approach him and press for a decision on what he intended to do for his livelihood in his life, pointing out to him that what he had acquired in the form of an education, only constituted bare minimums in order to be able to claim literacy. Through some pressure from his parents the Aquarian enrolled into a business college in the capital of Atlantiz.

The First Time for Adult Prayer.

In the spring of the second year of the Aquarian’s indecisiveness he bought a small fishing lunch and during them summer he almost got himself drowned at sea when the engine broke down during a sudden onset of a storm. After the Aquarian had mad several frantic attempts at getting the engine going again, he became aware that his life was in imminent danger and exhausted he sat down in the drifting and violently rocking boat that seemed to be capsizing at any moment. He did not know why he was praying, it just seemed to be the only thing left to do. A while later, somehow re-strengthened, he calmly repaired the engine and with the only remaining ignition cartridge left to him, got it started.

The Beginning of the Aquarian’s Flying.

The Aquarian had become 19 when he entered the business college in the capital of Atlantiz where the hunting-grounds for girls were much richer keeping his interest from the learning, but his interest in flying was however, rekindled. At school’s end in the spring he had become 20 and it was time that he sought out a carrier, so he started to take flying lessons and joining a glider club and in midsummer he soloed in gliders and got his motor solo. From here on there was no way that his father could get him back into college, his mind was now set. It was to become a professional pilot or bust, come hell or high water. “High water” was already part of his life; “hell” would come gradually and in full measure some 26 years later.

In the autumn the Aquarian got work as a driver for the U.S. Air Force on the NATO base in the vicinity of the capital of Atlantiz. He now spent his spare time and money taking flying lessons and dating, but working for the Air Force he began to get some handy experience with the English language. Flying required good knowledge of English.

Shortly after he became 21, the Aquarian was sought home by a lovely 18 year old foreign girl, whose errand it was to make a maternity claim against him steaming from a brief accountancy in the autumn of the year before. He reluctantly admitted being the father and promised to pay child support but never lived up to the promise. She left Atlantiz shortly after that and gave birth to a son aboard the ship on the way to her home, but the Aquarian’s subconscious gained further disturbance that would never quite leave him in peace.

The “First True Love,” the First Time Around.

That spring the Aquarian was for the first time confronted with what he believed to be his first serious love for an 18 year old girl who apparently returned his sentiments. This was an altogether different experience for him and his interest in intimate physical relations with her were somehow not in the forefront. They spent all their spare time during the summer together and it seemed to suffice for them to hold hands, neck and sigh. To them it all seemed so certain and settled; they would get married and have lots of children. In the autumn her father sent her abroad for school and the romance was continued through the mail. During the mid winter her letters suddenly stopped coming and a mutual friend of theirs informed the shaky Aquarian, that his “true love” had indeed found another and it was all over between them. This was then met by his return to dances, drinks and chasing girls, but somehow his ability trusting girls had changed by this experience and he became even more inconsiderate in respecting the feelings of the girls he had affairs with. It would be during these time for the Aquarian, that he noticed that the alcohol had become a new kind of friend who seemed to sooth the hurting and make him capable of not caring.

The “Second True Love,” the First Time Around.

Shortly after his break with his “first true love,” he met another lovely and gentle being which apparently was in love with him. Again he believed that he was in love for the rest of his life and they kept meeting and having intimate relations into the summer, but again the Aquarian noticed that his feeling for her were not quite the same as he had experienced with the “first true love”. Never the less, this girl was not only exceptionally beautiful but of an exceptional character to boot, but this was all to no avail since he was poorly conscious of his consciousness and his desires and motives, and that his real motives were simply to satisfy his sex drives. When he then broke of their relations he would, however, remember this girl and be aware that she was a woman that possessed the qualities of a fine wife and a partner. As he then returned to frequenting the dancehalls he did not noticed that there was something wrong with him as he was always to some degree under the influence as he had become totally incapable of approaching girls, without the aid and the encouragement of the drinks. The effect the alcohol was having in this was unknown to him, and the moral teaching which he had received during his last elementary school years and that had been of such great value to him, gradually eroded in his mind and were forgotten. It appeared to him that no one was living by any “higher principles” anyway and Christianity was but a grand hypocrisy. However, when he started to learn to fly, the part of the aviation laws that stated “A pilot shall be of good moral character.” became a looming reminder and encouragement.

The following winter, the Aquarian attended a ground course in Atlantiz for the Commercial Pilots License and Instrument Rating and then graduated in the spring with quite good grades, but he was now learning something that he was interested in and his motives were healthy. That he had already started a gradual evolution into an ever increasing state of what is called “Samsara” (Sanskrit) in some ancient philosophies of the east, and that this was changing his character, of this the Aquarian was not conscious. This meant that he was “looking into the future with the glasses of the past” and it was caused by the fact that the higher faculties of his brain, those that should have prevented this, were already numbed. The fact that his reality perception had already been altered and numbed by his use of alcohol, and that he was now acquiring an increased tolerance for alcohol, of this he had no awareness, and neither did he know what this meant. His use of alcohol was not any more or any less than what seemed to be socially accepted in Atlantiz. He would compare himself with his fellows and that comparison told him that he was doing all right. The little insights that the Aquarian gained into the purpose and processes of life, did not permit him an understanding of which direction he was progressing in and what the price for this would eventually become in terms of emotional reactions, unmanageability of his personal affairs and alienation from true happiness. He was in the midst of his progression into the reality of the life that collectively existed around him. The “Maya” in the Aquarian’s being would continue to grow.

The Second Time for Adult Prayer.

In the spring of his 22nd year, the Aquarian rented an access to the use of a lovely old Canadian built biplane, a Tiger Moth and while collecting flying hours in this fun plane, he had his second confrontation with immanent premature death. On a return flight from a visit with his two younger brothers, who were attending college in the north of the country, the engine started to pre-ignite while he found himself on an “On Top” flight over the overcast covered rough mountainous terrain of Atlantiz. Just as when the Aquarian had been threatened with premature death by drowning at sea, he again started to pray and again somehow calm-ed and became capable of clear thinking which in turn enabled him to manage to get the engine to run right again and he got away.

The “First True Love,” the Second Time Around.

It then came to pass one fine Saturday evening in early summer of the Aquarian’s 22nd year that he had gone to a country dance with some friends and he suddenly found himself dancing with the girl that had forgotten to write to him from abroad. They were both high on liquor and in good spirits, and now they laughed at their “childish” love affaire from the year before. He took her home leaving her with an invitation for a round robin flight the next day and after they landed on a grass field by a river in the countryside, they soon found themselves back where they had left of in their necking, except that now the sexual element was working in them full force. During the flight back to town he looped the aircraft a couple of times and the impression it made on the girl did not fail. That evening she came to his apartment and that which they had once decided would take place on their wedding night, now became reality. The Aquarian found that the old feelings for this girl had only just been stored somewhere inside him and they now came in full force into full awareness. With them came also a memory of the pain of her break with him.

The evenings and the nights of the next five months of the life of the Aquarian, were now, almost without exception, spent in the arms of this girl and they became completely emotionally and sexually hooked on each other, with a dark cloud loomed somewhere on the horizon of the Aquarian’s subconscious. The girl told him of her affairs since she had stopped her writing to him and included in this was an affair involving an abortion that would later prove to have rendered her infertile but this they did not know at the time. Her openness did not help the Aquarian already disturbed emotional life.

In the autumn in 1959 the Aquarian, along with two other young Atlantizians applied for admission to a flight training school in Fort Worth, Texas. Before the Aquarian was to leave for the United States, he was to enter a hospital for a tonsillectomy, which was supposed to take a week in the hospital but complications developed when the effects of the local anaesthetic wore of. He started getting excruciating pains and was given morphine which immediately removed the pain. Later he was taken of the morphine and put on codeine which was continued for the rest of his two weeks stay in the hospital. All during his hospitalization the Aquarians thoughts revolved around the future with his girl and he found that he was boiling with jealousy, resentments and anger that produced ambivalent feelings within him. She visited him regularly and continued to express her love for him. The war that was going on within him became unbearably hellish and he decided that he would wait with any decisions regarding their future together, until after his return from America. He simply could not handle this question at the present. Besides this he was now becoming suspicious that she might not be able to have any children, but this would later turn out to be right. When the Aquarian came out of the Hospital, he continued his affaire with the girl as though nothing was amiss.

A month before the Aquarian left for his school in America, he got a phone call from a girl he had taken home on night after a dance in the spring the same year, she claimed to be pregnant after the visit with him, but all she wanted was some assistance with the maternity costs, it had already been decided that the child would be given into legal adoption. He duly promised to send hear the help asked for, which she had legal rights to, but as with the previous such case, promptly forgot all about this. In Atlantiz, which was said to be the land of “free love,” this sort of behaviour was quite common and not generally frowned upon. His subconscious/unconscious would however, register all this fully and there would be yet another additional seed of guilt planted.

The Aquarian left his girl in the dark concerning the children he had fathered, and the same would be the case with his parents. In spite of the ambivalence that was taking place in his emotional life, he still believed that he was in love with her and that they were engaged to be married as he did believed that he would eventually be able to forget that the girl had broken with him before. Little did he know that this brake in their love had already produced the ambivalence in his sub-conscious, sub developed emotions, that had been the cause for his emotional binges in the hospital and his ambivalence was something over which his will had no power. Much the less did he realize that this would render him incapable of loving her in a healthy manner and would destroy his endeavours at loving her in a natural and unselfish way.

The Aquarian had no awareness of the involvement of the Dragon in this, much the less the development of the two Beasts that was now in the progress. Least of all did he have any notion that he was about to complete the breaking of the first of the four seals in his inevitable evolution of his alcohol induced unstable emotional constitution. He would regard his negative behaviour as well as the negative events in his life as being caused by the actions of others and would not suspect his use of alcohol as having to do with this, much the less did he have any insights into the fact that its sole cause was the alcohol.

In God’s own Country, America the Rich.

On the day of the earth’s apergy, Anno Dominie 1960 the Aquarian left Atlantiz for the United States and as he went through the immigrations at New York’s Idyllwild Airport, the bells in the customs area started ringing. To his embarrassment a fluor marked compass was found in his suitcase, it had triggered the Geiger counters. He stayed with friends in New Jersey for a week, and then he was of for Texas on the Greyhound Busses. On arrival in Fort Worth he went straight to the school which was located on an airfield north of the City and on enrolment he was given lodgings at the same place as the two other Atlantizians, who had arrived a couple of weeks before him.

Now his life became ground school and flying. That was what it was all about. In the evening, after their dinner, the three young Atlantizians would make it a habit of going over to a local bar and have a few bears. This they had not been able to do in Atlantiz since beer was not permitted there, consequently this was to them some sort of a luxury. During his training the Aquarian would forget about girls for the most part, and only on a few occasions would the three Atlantizians go out on weekends drinking and dancing. It was during this time that the Aquarian started to notice with satisfaction that he was getting some markedly increased tolerance for alcohol. To him it meant that he had become more of a man and could drink considerably more alcohol without getting conspicuously intoxicated. The negative significance of this was completely unknown to him.

It was during one such drinking outing that the Aquarian was picked up by a woman somewhat older than he was, and later it would turn out that she was married. It did however not deter him in interfering in the marriage and becoming unfaithful to the girl in Atlantiz that was waiting for his letters. It was of course all of the married woman’s doings. The story was now reversed and this time it was the Aquarian who stopped writing, but this was however not consciously intentional on his part, she seemed so far away and unreal and he never gave it a thought that this might have been similar with her, when she had started to fail in hear writing to him on the first occasion.

The two boys that had come ahead of him finished their ground-schools and started going for the FAA examination but one of them had to flunk it three times before passing, the other once. There were language problems. The Aquarian finished his commercial ground course with high average grades and good flying grades. In early June he passed his first attempt at the written FAA test with an excellent grade, this particularly considering that he was a foreigner. Of the three Atlantizians he had the least of the language problems; here his work with the Air Force came to his aid. Celebrating his graduation on of his school mates invited the Aquarian for as Saturday night on the town and they ended up drunk in a country and western saloon, where the graduate, a big and husky fellow, got into a fight, while the little Aquarian hid himself. The police came and rolled them of to the slammer and they had to pay a fine of 10 dollars each, before they could go home to nursing their remorse and hangovers.

A couple of weeks later the Aquarian completed his FAA check-flight and got his commercial then enrolled for an instrument rating course. The ground school was completed by the Aquarian a month and a half later, again with quite good average graduation grades and flying grades. He then passed his FAA written examination with good grades and eventually his second attempt at the check-flight.

It was the middle of the year 1960 and the Aquarian had by now progress through the first, “preparatory phase,” of the disorder of Alcoholism, the world’s commonest and most vicious malady. By now he had gained considerable alcohol tolerance and the alcohol now produces in him a satisfying feeling of deep relaxation. During this phase, as well as the next, he is quite capable controlling his drinking, that is, to regulate and stop his drinking when he decides that the situation warrants. This, however, with the exception of what the Aquarian considers to be, special celebrations, when he believes it to be appropriate to drink to become high, which in turn, frequently results in his becoming drunk.

When the Aquarian looked back at his life, he discovered that by this time he had been through intimate relations with over a 150 different women, and this gave him the false sense of self-worth. Freud’s explanations justified this. He did see himself as a “crowned victor” in his dealings with the other sex, and the seeds of shame and fear were thus planted in his subconscious. His continued consumption of alcohol would nourish those seeds and the “Weeds of Death” would grow within him leaving the “Flower of the Sole” undernourished. In the coming ten years his alcohol tolerance would increase further and the Dragon would gain full powers through “The First Beast.” This would be the ride on the “Read Horse” during which gradually a lower stress threshold is produced, which in turn manifests in a marked increase in resentments and anger, but this is the inescapable subject of our next chapter or that of;

The Rupture of the Second Seal.

Part One, Chapter Two
(Book of Revelation Chapter 6.)

The Rupture of
the Second Seal

Early Adult Twenties in the Author's Life.
His Progression in the Second Stage of
None-addicted Alcoholism during his
23rd to 33rd Years of Life.

“Though there is no way of proving it, we believe that early in our drinking careers most of us
could have stopped drinking. But the difficulty is that few alcoholics have enough desire to stop
while there is yet time.”

More about alcoholism. The Big Book of the Amateur Angels.

Book of Revelation Chapter 6.

3) Then the Lamb broke open the second seal and I heard the second living creature say, “Come!” 4) Another horse came out, a red one. Its rider was given the power to bring war on the earth, so that men should kill eachother. He was given a large sword.

Revelations 6.

THE QF-INTERPRETAION OF CHAPTER 6 : 3-4.

The first two seals in the prophesy ruptured by Apallo Aquarian, represent the two Non-addicted Alcoholic Stages,

or the two phases of the Purely Symptomatic Phase. These are The Prealcoholic Symptomatic Phases and The Predromal Phase to Addiction of the alcoholic progression, which in the Aquariaon's case are rather extended taking him through 20 years of drinking, or from the 13th to the 33rd year of his life. These are the none-pathlogical phases of alcoholism.
The second Jellinek phase, or The Predromal Phase to Addiction of the the Aquarian's alcoholic progression corresponds to the Second Seal in the Revelation and deals with the changes in his personality during the years from 23 to 33.

"3) Then the Lamb broke open the second seal and I heard the second living creature say, “Come!” 4) Another horse came out, a red one. Its rider was given the power to bring war on the earth, so that men should kill eachother. He was given a large sword."

This denotes the alterations in the Aquarian’s drinking habits and relief drinking, but by now he is working and earning mony to pay for his own alcoholic beverage, which happens to be the cheeper Johny Walker Red Label Whiskey, but this becomes constant on all appropriate occasions. The character now changes as he starts to bulid up "the filter" in his brain's introns, which in turn means increased tollerance to alcohol and tendency to become more and more emotional, resentful, angry and aggressive as denoted by the "color red" of the horse and the "large sword".

END OF THE QF-INTERPRETAION OF CHAPTER 6 : 3-4.

Predromal Phase to Addiction : Jellinek’s Enquiry.

The sudden onset of a behavior resembling the “blackouts” in anoxemia marks the beginning of the prodromal phase of alcohol addiction. The drinker who may have had not more than 50 to 60 g. of absolute alcohol and who is not showing any signs of intoxication may carry on a reasonable conversation or may go through quite elaborate activities without a trace of memory the next day, although sometimes one or two minor details may be

hazily remembered. This amnesia, which is not connected with loss of consciousness, has been called by Bonhoeffer the “alcoholic palimpsests,” with reference to old Roman manuscripts superimposed over an incompletely erased manuscript.

“Alcoholic palimpsests” (1) may occur on rare occasions in an average drinker when he drinks” intoxicating amounts in a state of physical or emotional exhaustion. Nonaddictive alcoholics, of course, also may experience “palimpsests,” but infrequently and only following rattler marked intoxication. Thus, the frequency of “palimpsests” and their occurrence after medium alcohol intake are characteristic of the prospective alcohol addict. This would suggest heightened susceptibility to alcohol in the prospective addict. Such a susceptibility may be psychologically or physiologically determined. The analogy with the “blackouts” of anoxemia is tempting. Of course, an insufficient oxygen supply cannot be assumed, but a malutilization of oxygen may be involved. The present status of the knowledge of alcoholism does not permit of more than vague conjectures, which, never¬theless, may constitute bases for experimental hypotheses. The onset of “alcoholic palimpsests” is followed (in some instances preceded) by the onset of drinking behaviors which indicate that, for this drinker, beer, wine and spirits have practically ceased to be beverages and have become sources of a drug which he “needs.” Some of these behaviors imply that this drinker has same vague realization that he drinks differently from others.

Surreptitious drinking (2) is one of these behaviors. At social gatherings the drinker seeks occasions for having a few drinks unknown to others, as he fears that if it were known that he drinks more than the others he would be misjudged those to whom drinking is only a custom or a small pleasure would not understand that because he is different from them alcohol is for him a necessity, although he is not a drunkard.

Preoccupation with alcohol (3) is further evidence of this “need.” When he prepares to go to a social gathering his first thought is whether there will be sufficient alcohol for his requirements, and he has several drinks in anticipation of a possible shortage. Because of this increasing dependence upon alcohol, the onset of avid drinking (4) (gulping of the first or first two drinks) occurs at this time. As the drinker relizes, at least vaguely, that his drinking is outside of the ordinary, he develops guilt feeling about his drinking behavior (5) and because of this he begins to avoid reference to alcohol (6) in conversation.

These behaviors, together with an increasing frequency of “alcoholic palimpsests” (7) foreshadow the development of alcohol addiction the arc premonitory signs, and this period may be called the prodromal phase of alcohol addiction.

The consumption of alcoholic beverages in the prodromal phase is “heavy,” but not conspicuous, as it does not lead to marked, overt intoxi¬cations. The effect is that the prospective addict reaches towards evenings a state, which may be designated as emotional anesthesia. Nevertheless, this condition requires drinking well beyond the ordinary usage. The drinking is an a level which may begin to interfere with metabolic and nervous processes as evidenced by the frequent “alcoholic palimpsests.” The “covering-up” which is shown by the drinker in this stage is the first sign that his drinking might separate him from society, although initially the drinking may have served as a technique to overcome some lack of social integration. As in the prodromal phase rationalizations of the drinking behavior ace not strong and there is some insight as well as fear of possible consequences, it is feasible to intercept incipient alcohol addiction at this stage. In the United States of America, the publicity given to the prodromal symptoms begins to bring prospective alcoholics to clinics as well as to groups of Alcoholics Anonymous. It goes without saying that even at this stage the only possible modus for this type of drinker is total abstinence:

The prodromal period may last anywhere from 6 months to 4 or 5 years according to the physical and psychological make-up of the drinker, his family ties, vocational relations, general interests, and so forth. The prodromal phase ends and the crucial or acute phase begins with the onset of less of control, which is the critical symptom of alcohol addiction.

The Non-addicted Alcoholic Adult Years of the Twenties
and Early Thirties in the Life of the Aquarian.

The Rupture of the Second Seal.
Narration by “Morgan le Fay.”

This chapter deals with how the Aquarian makes his slow evolution into and through, the second forerunner phase of the disorder of alcoholism, but from the medical point of view, this is not considered to be a sickness, and the individual is still considered to be able to control his drinking.
This is the stage during which the Aquarian is believed to be capable of deciding to stop his use of alcohol without the aid of others, should he have a good enough motivation. However, it is his DNA-intron genetic inheritance, the co-dependency effects in his upbringing and his previous use of alcohol, which determines his future cause, not his personal will. In addition, his destiny to be the person to decipher the mysteries of the Book of Revelation, demand his progression into and through this phase which is characterized by the “Read Horse” and its “Rider with the Sword” who in turn “Takes away the Peace on Earth.” The most precarious aspect of his aggressiveness finds its release in the way he drives automobiles as it is the “First of the Two Beasts” which has now come into full powers and is really doing the driving. His alcoholism is however, like all his developments in life, unusually slow and subtle, which may also be caused by the restraints put on him by his profession, but through the Aquarian’s brain decreasing ability to produce neuro-inhibitors due his increased alcohol consumption, witch in turn will effect his professional progression.

We shall thus have a brief look at these ten years in life of the Aquarian, during which his drinking is still, for the most part, “normal,” or “social.” These are the years of the Aquarian’s life where he goes through his

The Break with the “First True Love.”

It was late summer in 1960 when the Aquarian returns from the United States, but he is now 23 years of age and unknown to him, has entered into the second stage of the alcohol addiction progression. On his return he met with the girl who had waited for his letters and for him, and who now quickly forgave him his failings in writing and they were back to their lovemaking where they had left of. In his behavior towards his bride to be, the Aquarian began to become more and more ambivalent, and he justified this to himself by the fact that she was not becoming pregnant. His attitude toward her became cooler and hears towards him warmer. For a week in the summer they went together to Dragon Island for a summer weekend festival where the wine gods were worshipped feverishly during a week, where one night while quite intoxicated, he told her that he was not going to marry her. His explanations were that he did not trust himself to be good to her as a husband since he still harbored resentments towards her for her one-time break with him and further that he believed that she could not have children. The next day when sobered up he withdrew everything he had said, but the episode left her confused and insecure and then, one sunny day a couple of weeks later, the Aquarian formally broke of the affaire and left her in tears.

Opportunities Come and Go.

In the early winter the Aquarian attended theoretical part of a Flight Navigator’s License along with 43 other young pilot trainees. The most interesting part for him was the Astro Navigation and the book that was used, the U.S. Navy Hydrographic Office, H.O. Pub. No. 216 became a favorite of his. The course was completed in the spring 1961 and he graduated sharing third place of the 43 candidates where 5 flunked, but the graduation was duly celebrated by the students having a grand drinking party with their teachers. During this time he met a Danish/American engineer who worked on the NATO base, who had bought a World War II fighter-trainer powered by a 700 HP engine and known as the T-6 Texan, or as Harvard IIB in Europe. The Aquarian got his permission to use it and got an Atlantizian that had been a WW II fighter pilot in the RAF, to train him to fly this marvel of an airplane.

In the late autumn the selection for the pilots took place but the two national carriers would be hiring 22 pilots for permanent contracts. The Aquarian applied with both carriers but was rejected with his 230 hours total flying time. However, the five Flight Navigator students that had flunked, who had lots of flying hours, were all hired retaking the exams, which made the Aquarian quite disappointed and bitter and he could be heard cursing cliquish connections. His response was to go to work on collecting more flying hours and went back to flying the fighter-trainer during the rest of the year realizing that if he was to get into aviation, it would not be in Atlantiz.

Towards the end of 1961 the 24 year old Aquarian had gotten a job as an accounting assistant with the U.S. Navy on the NATO base, but there his office manager, who was booze and gambling addicted, gave the Aquarian unlimited opportunities for overtime. A few Atlantizian pilots had gone to Europe and been hired and now the Aquarian was to save his money and go to England and see about getting a job there. This meant that he would have to convert his licenses and thus have to go to school and retake some examinations and it would all cost money so he need the overtime to make the necessary savings, but this would not interfere with his weekend dances, drinking and girl chasing.

The Aquarian, who now is 25, years old and though he appeared quite normal, the emotional side of him, his subconscious, is quite immature, and this becomes apparent on occasions when he drinks, but our anti-hero has by now experienced being thrown a couple of times into the drunk slammer in Atlantiz for getting into fights while drunk and disorderly at public dances. In England of the sixties, however, this was not the order of the day and he would have to learn better public drinking manners. A major weakness in him from his childhood co-dependency and his own drinking is his unmanageability in his decision making, but of this he is not conscious, and is now about to experience what he is like when things get tough.

Off to Merry Old England.

It was a sunny Sunday, 13th of July 1962 that the Aquarian arrived in England where he was going to be employed as a pilot or bust. In London he found lodgings in a cheep Kensington hotel and spent the next days looking over the sights and seeking out two Atlantizian pilots who worked in England. They gave him a bleak picture of the situation, not very promising for a foreigner with only 366 hours total time and 300 British airline pilots, with thousands of flying hours, unemployed. On the continent it was the same with 400 experienced pilots in Holland and Scandinavia looking for jobs. The airlines were switching from propeller aircraft to jets where they needed fewer pilots and the impression the Aquarian got was; “pilots a penny a dozen”, but he was also reminded that things changed very rapidly in aviation.

The Aquarian now set about the conversion of his licenses while at the same time catching on to the charm of the life in the English pubs. He would not miss his pint of bitters at lunch and a couple in the evening, and even though he did not particularly like bear he would be faithful to the English pubs all the way to the bitter end. For his upkeep the Aquarian found work with the U. S. Navy Exchange on grounds of his previous experience, but there he soon met with a young civilian American who offered to share with him the renting of a central heated flat in Kensington. This turned out to be a luxury and through this fellow he got to meet a lot of young people, both Americans and Britons who soon gave him the nickname, “The Belligerent Mini-Viking.”

His situation had now become quite good and soon he completed the conversion of his commercial, which was celebrated by a major binch drinking weekend that ended in London’s Soho district, where he was taken for 40 pounds in a nightclub clip-joint. It would take him a long time to forgive himself for this stupidity since the binch-money had been intended for his pilot-job seeking endeavors. This lead the Aquarian to pondering the old question; “why does man so often act against his better judgment?” and from there to reading Sigmund Freud with whose theories he agreed and considered brilliant. Man was just like Freud suggested; a beast on the inside, a mask on the outside, and God was neurosis.

The “Third True Love.” The Second Engagement.

It was during this time the Aquarian met his third big love; a lovely and charming young Italian American and again he experienced the stronger emotions that he remembered from his previous “true loves.” He remained, however, quite distressed and restless since it was now more than a year since he left Atlantiz and he had not been able to find a job as a pilot and he saw himself as a failure and a grand disgrace. In November 1963, he got the news that a new island had been born in the archipelago of Dragon Island, through a submarine volcanic eruption an it had been given the name; “Devil’s Island.”

His affair with the American girl had intensified and she had become pregnant and since he had no pilot’s job and no prospects; she decided to have an abortion. Hardly a month would pass and she was pregnant again; their regular drinking was causing confusion in her mind to make her forget her contraceptive pill. After the second abortion, she would become more reluctant to see some future with him and this in turn drew him into states of desperation, since he had become sexually dependent on her.

The first two months of 1964 were a severe test for the Aquarian and in late February the climax came but by now he was working in a US Air Force Club. The crisis came when his supposed fiancé, started to turn him away by going out with other men, but this brought the Aquarian’s subconscious to its limits and while waiting for more money from his family, his weaknesses now took control of his actions. Before the Aquarian knew what was happening, he had “borrowed some money” in the Club, but with out him being capable of understanding that it was to his benefit, this was immediately detected and became a police matter. The Aquarian immediately admitted and was dismissed from his job and order to appear before a magistrate to answer to a charge of petty larceny. When he appeared in court he had received the money from home and promptly paid back the money dishonestly acquired and a fine of fifty pounds. The Aquarian who could not understand that it was he him-self who was the master of the chain of events in his life, now tried to excuse the shame blaiming his girl who forgave him and soothed with some drinks and her arms.

The Final Throw of the Dies.

In March the aviation industry's surplus of pilots had been used up. Again the Aquarian got 500 pounds from home and feeling a little more confident got the written rating for the Douglas Dakota (DC 3) and then was of to Oxford’s Kiddlington Airport to get an instrument rating. During the training his fiancé, who again had begun to go out with other fellows, came to visit him and experienced his violent outburst of jalousie. However, after this he seemed to loose the interest in her and settled down to make good progress in his training.

On the 22nd of May he completed his Instrument Rating and two days later he finished the Multi Engine Rating. The day after his completion, the manager of the school called him in his office and while congratulating him, told him that he had a job for him, if he would consider flying as a co-pilot on a DC 3. Yes indeed, the Aquarian, who felt indescribably happy, considers such an opportunity.

A couple of days later the Aquarian met with the chief pilot of BRITISH WESTPOINT AIRLINES, a small local carrier in Exeter, Devonshire, and was promptly hired as a first officer on DC 3s pending a work permit and his training performance being satisfactory. He was to earn fifty pounds a week; a small fortune compared to what he had enjoyed th

00 : Introductions	The Presentation of the Book.
*01 : Preface*	The Interpretations Quantum Mechanical, Neurological and Spiritual Justification.
02 : Premises	The Reality Justification for the Book.
03 : Interpretations Introductions	The Prophesies Anouncements. The Indications for the Place of Manifestation and the Prophesy Message.
04 : Prophesy's First Part	The Rupture of the Seven Seals. The "How it was!" Part.
05 : Prophesy's Second Part	The Blowing of the Seven Trumpets. The "What Happened!" Part One.
06 : The Intermezzo	The Consequences for the Person recieving the Prophesy . The "What Happened!" Part Two.
07 : Prophesy's Third Part	The Seven Bowels of God's Anger The "How it became" Part.
08 : The Conclusions:	The End of the Prophesy.
09 : Epilogue	The Conclusions and Discussions.